hadn't seen him for months...
it was good to see him.
I have no thoughts. well, a few. try to hear this... just listen..
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
k.
I just texted this person, "Hast du ein word für mich um die Wohnung?" and another person is over. . . and the facts are: I would probably do better in an environment where I was around more love. . . our relationship has reached that crucial level where we feel comfortable yelling around each other: no! another way of phrasing that would be we have reached a crucial level where we have allowed anger to work into our relations and it is great evidence that people are messed up all over the place... peaceful people...is that who a person is who aims to disrupt little? By moving.. I will have to be wise which means I am putting myself in a demanding situation and I better be on top of my game so I am able to keep up. I better be able to admit when I am doing my bit? Of course.. how else am I going to be able to recognize it enough to be able to fix it? See.. there is some good stuff.. when I forget anyone else will read it. When it is FOR someone the intent totally changes. Perhaps painting in school with Kat in the James house in the address of the church is just too perfect.. but it shares a number with God.. in a few places.. The church obviously has God in it but I think James does to.. Maybe he came to understand the things of God without human language - which is not able to reach nouminous God anyway.. but we have both shared in music.. we have learned much from this. I have many words for James.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
art and spirituality
I have a hypotheisis that me thinking I write slower than others is a construct my mind has created that I am following without applying consciouness. I think the most important hing will be to learn the material. Want me to type the notes for you? Ok!
We looked at the way various religions use bodies...gods in Greek art are indeed anthropomorphic.. great emphasis on bodies in Greek art.. man is the measure.. precedent for rejection of physical manifestation them--> of bodies? If we look at Mythic stories we find that looking directly at a God has negative consequences (so they must be powerful images, right?
Then Action, Artemis (Diana) --> basically artemis turned Action into something because he looked at her
To see the divine is overwhelming..the sense in many religions that representation of the divine as a body implies that the God is vulnerable and fragile.
presenting God lessens him (prevalent in African art)
Orphic movement in Greece - put emphasis on gods and the human spirit or soul..philosophical and religious movement that rejects material aspects and portrayal of gods. Put emphasis on god's divine origin.
Plato - God is the measure of all things but he himself has no measure"
Plato wrote "there are two somethings: we must look towards the divine and it alone is worth contemplating. 2. Representing the divine is futile, almost ac-religious"
as soon as we have thought of divinity we have already limited it..
we are necessarily limited by our human capacities...
in exodus when God asks for an image to be made it is completely fine
if I live in the James house and get to paint and take those two awesome classes... I have to really behave myself..
we are studying graven images because it helps us understand the agency the people surrounding it ascribed it..
a religion would want to make the god tangible so he becomes relateable
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Turn to Islam: strong history of not portraying the body of the divine. The Qur'an says little about the prohibitoin of image making. :They are of Satan's handiwork". God is considered a metaphysical unity. He is allah, the one, the eternal.
Sufi scholar" I have never seen anything without God in it. I have never seen anything but god".. the notion of god is so transcendent that the idea of him being everywhere is part of the faith.
Christian Icoloclasm: The rejection of images, almost always the rejection of relgious images.. how does the religion ban images of the invisible?
The Christians differentaiated from 2D images to 3D images. Because of the Jewish background of most Christians there is not a whole lot of religious imagery that includes a body. Words and symbols were of often included.. there is some.
We looked at the way various religions use bodies...gods in Greek art are indeed anthropomorphic.. great emphasis on bodies in Greek art.. man is the measure.. precedent for rejection of physical manifestation them--> of bodies? If we look at Mythic stories we find that looking directly at a God has negative consequences (so they must be powerful images, right?
Then Action, Artemis (Diana) --> basically artemis turned Action into something because he looked at her
To see the divine is overwhelming..the sense in many religions that representation of the divine as a body implies that the God is vulnerable and fragile.
presenting God lessens him (prevalent in African art)
Orphic movement in Greece - put emphasis on gods and the human spirit or soul..philosophical and religious movement that rejects material aspects and portrayal of gods. Put emphasis on god's divine origin.
Plato - God is the measure of all things but he himself has no measure"
Plato wrote "there are two somethings: we must look towards the divine and it alone is worth contemplating. 2. Representing the divine is futile, almost ac-religious"
as soon as we have thought of divinity we have already limited it..
we are necessarily limited by our human capacities...
in exodus when God asks for an image to be made it is completely fine
if I live in the James house and get to paint and take those two awesome classes... I have to really behave myself..
we are studying graven images because it helps us understand the agency the people surrounding it ascribed it..
a religion would want to make the god tangible so he becomes relateable
NEW PAGE:
Turn to Islam: strong history of not portraying the body of the divine. The Qur'an says little about the prohibitoin of image making. :They are of Satan's handiwork". God is considered a metaphysical unity. He is allah, the one, the eternal.
Sufi scholar" I have never seen anything without God in it. I have never seen anything but god".. the notion of god is so transcendent that the idea of him being everywhere is part of the faith.
Christian Icoloclasm: The rejection of images, almost always the rejection of relgious images.. how does the religion ban images of the invisible?
The Christians differentaiated from 2D images to 3D images. Because of the Jewish background of most Christians there is not a whole lot of religious imagery that includes a body. Words and symbols were of often included.. there is some.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
For some reason the radio won't start
I can't write about it, because its not there... ahh.. can't write about it because its not there. Maybe that is something I have to keep in mind as I write these papers: make them be relevant enough they are something I could be using to literally help me. . . think about these issues. I think that is why I've always enjoyed working on learning: writing papers - because I was effecting my reality as I wrote. Same now. Same now. Same now. Same now. Same now. Same now.
What I am doing is connected to what
So the Y uses a lot of light, right? I wonder how much the planners took the the sun's location into account. The Y is making you be part of the art..
Those machines provide a rythm and they work me...
conversations surrounding the injury rarely go well.. but talking about the experience by way of a universal object (like a machine or a work of art).. and relate to other "stories," "lives,"..All this knowledge is too esoteric.. but so is the knowledge you have but you are using it so I can understand my life on a more true level. . . that's too Dr. Tom. I just really feel like some intense things are going to go down. I have to stop thinking about them.....no no n o. not stop, rahter, think about them in the context of the things I need to know. Which is this art history stuff. Which is absolutely adorable..
with the cathedral picture I was viewing others making something so beautiful with awe...
I was capturing that building; I was capturing my journey there...
The piece is also about the colors in the sky... The fact that I said something clearly enough that Nancy was able to formulate a thought and react is a start, right? That means she comprehended my words... which is all I was kinda going for...
I think Adena thinks I am telling a story different from hers. At least before she has. Maybe she is seeing because she knows we are all one.
I just have to go to the gym and work out... and enjoy MY LIFE... and I have a whole day to do this. Just enjoy, work on remembering what it is that I enjoy so much... its not really doing this.. its being around public places, seeing the care people give to their own space. . . need to clean my place up. My abs hurt a lot. I am becoming a person who does something really cool. My legacy is inspiring others to do cool things.. it show what you put your thoughts on!
What I am doing is connected to what
So the Y uses a lot of light, right? I wonder how much the planners took the the sun's location into account. The Y is making you be part of the art..
Those machines provide a rythm and they work me...
conversations surrounding the injury rarely go well.. but talking about the experience by way of a universal object (like a machine or a work of art).. and relate to other "stories," "lives,"..All this knowledge is too esoteric.. but so is the knowledge you have but you are using it so I can understand my life on a more true level. . . that's too Dr. Tom. I just really feel like some intense things are going to go down. I have to stop thinking about them.....no no n o. not stop, rahter, think about them in the context of the things I need to know. Which is this art history stuff. Which is absolutely adorable..
with the cathedral picture I was viewing others making something so beautiful with awe...
I was capturing that building; I was capturing my journey there...
The piece is also about the colors in the sky... The fact that I said something clearly enough that Nancy was able to formulate a thought and react is a start, right? That means she comprehended my words... which is all I was kinda going for...
I think Adena thinks I am telling a story different from hers. At least before she has. Maybe she is seeing because she knows we are all one.
I just have to go to the gym and work out... and enjoy MY LIFE... and I have a whole day to do this. Just enjoy, work on remembering what it is that I enjoy so much... its not really doing this.. its being around public places, seeing the care people give to their own space. . . need to clean my place up. My abs hurt a lot. I am becoming a person who does something really cool. My legacy is inspiring others to do cool things.. it show what you put your thoughts on!
Monday, March 7, 2011
small habits
There are little things I do not do consistently that tell people I am not ready for the big stuff.
it was in my act of asking him that allowed him to communicate some things do me in a more to-the-point way.
When I get this social bull crap out of the way I really do enjoy life.
and being a member at the Y just makes so much sense.
Oh, you pulled it out of me...
And now.. with the gym out of our relationship I shouldn't keep confusing the two.
seriously, I have pretty deep reasons.. but ...... my innate reasons are deeper?
I like the idea of humans communicating to each other with their body language, it is like they are dancing...
when I am in this mind I like to be in I am focused on the holographic universe and ... how others are influenced by my actions. . . . . . . . . osossoooos o os o o s o o oos o o so o o o o oso o o aoao o o o o of o o o o o o o o o o ocok k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k m m m , m m , nm jm .l v .v ; l. ;v vk . k /v . c mcnl cc,cv.. cl c. .c;c./ / l / ;vv; b'vbvcx;mnz; dcvc/vc. ,v/vc,bn/v .gvv.c
notice the shifts in the way the thoughts came out of the body... this is how art communicates. There is a deep place in me that has connected wit h that u niversal...mode of thinking.. I think the issue is not exactly feeling like I have a family. . . .. . . .
man, it kinda feels like eric was trying to make a family with me. . . without any intention of participating in things of society... well he did buy that rock band and got me to act really freaky when Jacob was over.. that was pretty strange...
k. lots of cool school stuff now!
it was in my act of asking him that allowed him to communicate some things do me in a more to-the-point way.
When I get this social bull crap out of the way I really do enjoy life.
and being a member at the Y just makes so much sense.
Oh, you pulled it out of me...
And now.. with the gym out of our relationship I shouldn't keep confusing the two.
seriously, I have pretty deep reasons.. but ...... my innate reasons are deeper?
I like the idea of humans communicating to each other with their body language, it is like they are dancing...
when I am in this mind I like to be in I am focused on the holographic universe and ... how others are influenced by my actions. . . . . . . . . osossoooos o os o o s o o oos o o so o o o o oso o o aoao o o o o of o o o o o o o o o o ocok k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k m m m , m m , nm jm .l v .v ; l. ;v vk . k /v . c mcnl cc,cv.. cl c. .c;c./ / l / ;vv; b'vbvcx;mnz; dcvc/vc. ,v/vc,bn/v .gvv.c
notice the shifts in the way the thoughts came out of the body... this is how art communicates. There is a deep place in me that has connected wit h that u niversal...mode of thinking.. I think the issue is not exactly feeling like I have a family. . . .. . . .
man, it kinda feels like eric was trying to make a family with me. . . without any intention of participating in things of society... well he did buy that rock band and got me to act really freaky when Jacob was over.. that was pretty strange...
k. lots of cool school stuff now!
Saturday, March 5, 2011
I think
I think I am drawn to things for reason I have no comprehension of.
Perhaps I was drawn to Cindy with that church with the art show for this exact reason.
I can't help ... lots of things.
Not too sure about how i feel about rides right now.
Not too sure what I feel about help.
It depends how focused nations are when committed to solving the problem. Hmm. Eric has shifted out and someone else has moved in? I was just talking a few days ago about how crummy it was that a guy waited until he had another girl in mind (or in line) before he dumped his girlfriend. And here I am doing the same thing.
So Blake was teaching me how others could love me (and he knew it)
and the consequences of that action are far reaching because it affected how I perceive people's reactions..
What cool conversations did I have today?
I had a really cool one with John. It wasn't about cool things, but it felt right. So I have a vaginal diseasethat 80% of women have one strain of by age 50.
That makes me feel dead. Thinking about that feels like I ruined my life.
Black and white like John said.. try not to see it so black and white...
try to see it how it is? But what if it is thoughts and events with thoughts that create part of how the ...
event.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
The concert was totally fine. am I glad I went? yeah. Did it go just like it was supposed to? I hope so...
The things I want to "share" you can get in your own space... and without some of the stupflundous filler talk. . .
.. i dunno. The few interactions I have with you are some of the most complexing ones.
I feel like you've go it together more than I do. But we're both human, right?! So.. really.. what besides my psychology telling a story to myself could there be for me feeling that I am lacking in some way? Gee wizzers, i loose myself. Eric claims to do this (which tends to be when i get most frustrated).. and I feel really uncomfortable with this double sided way I feel about him... I think it has something to do with these differing "personalities" within us but as our relationship goes on I am recognizing tons of patterns of other relationships clipping like ours feels to be... and it becomes more about the individual psyches than the psyche as a couple.. that is interesting.. two peoples' psyches corrupting each other.. i often ask myself what is causing my thoughts to take the forms they're taking... this therapist guy this morning told me that I sometimes sounded self righteous. And I said, "How much is there I am not saying." And he replied, "like right there".. and I reflected on the few times I have seen that self righteous look in others. The performer playing the clarinet tonight was interesting. It is like he was struggling with his own perception of his "gifts" while he was up there.. it was mostly blues, swing, they did a Pasty Cline song and some famous Jazz song, "Sing, Sing, Sing"
Perhaps I was drawn to Cindy with that church with the art show for this exact reason.
I can't help ... lots of things.
Not too sure about how i feel about rides right now.
Not too sure what I feel about help.
It depends how focused nations are when committed to solving the problem. Hmm. Eric has shifted out and someone else has moved in? I was just talking a few days ago about how crummy it was that a guy waited until he had another girl in mind (or in line) before he dumped his girlfriend. And here I am doing the same thing.
So Blake was teaching me how others could love me (and he knew it)
and the consequences of that action are far reaching because it affected how I perceive people's reactions..
What cool conversations did I have today?
I had a really cool one with John. It wasn't about cool things, but it felt right. So I have a vaginal diseasethat 80% of women have one strain of by age 50.
That makes me feel dead. Thinking about that feels like I ruined my life.
Black and white like John said.. try not to see it so black and white...
try to see it how it is? But what if it is thoughts and events with thoughts that create part of how the ...
event.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
The concert was totally fine. am I glad I went? yeah. Did it go just like it was supposed to? I hope so...
The things I want to "share" you can get in your own space... and without some of the stupflundous filler talk. . .
.. i dunno. The few interactions I have with you are some of the most complexing ones.
I feel like you've go it together more than I do. But we're both human, right?! So.. really.. what besides my psychology telling a story to myself could there be for me feeling that I am lacking in some way? Gee wizzers, i loose myself. Eric claims to do this (which tends to be when i get most frustrated).. and I feel really uncomfortable with this double sided way I feel about him... I think it has something to do with these differing "personalities" within us but as our relationship goes on I am recognizing tons of patterns of other relationships clipping like ours feels to be... and it becomes more about the individual psyches than the psyche as a couple.. that is interesting.. two peoples' psyches corrupting each other.. i often ask myself what is causing my thoughts to take the forms they're taking... this therapist guy this morning told me that I sometimes sounded self righteous. And I said, "How much is there I am not saying." And he replied, "like right there".. and I reflected on the few times I have seen that self righteous look in others. The performer playing the clarinet tonight was interesting. It is like he was struggling with his own perception of his "gifts" while he was up there.. it was mostly blues, swing, they did a Pasty Cline song and some famous Jazz song, "Sing, Sing, Sing"
Friday, March 4, 2011
So, been away for a few weeks
When is the last time I got excited about words I did not know? When I was with Matt last at The Bitter End. I think I was on break then.. jeez. I am really not seeing much of him. I did see him in ti kwon do yesterday and that is probably an event that was nice for both of us.
Why do I keep gettin g disctracted onto facebook? There must be something there I need.. right? Get ready for this week... Saveth at pot for when I need it.. must do that. must not rely on anything external. I rely on healthy food .....when I stop honoring its power is when it becomes "wrong". It is how I look at them that determines their value? I think it is. How am I using this time well? I am thinking about why I am doing so poorly in school. I think the issue is that I have never really studied the way this Islam and Eberle experience is asking me to.
She is a really awesome person. the fact that my voice has always worked around her (basically) is quite the sign. She is looking for a mysterious answer, THINKS well of me and thus influences the way the thoughts about myself go.
Wow. So the places I put myself into have an affect on me.
the library was a good spot to go.. don't know what happened to Matt... thinking maybe I should let that relationship go? I just don't know... hope he calls?
Dad will probably call . he wants me to call him. He might have some words I need. . . . doing some studying stuff. Islam? Words.. get excited about words first..
maybe it was one week
Why do I keep gettin g disctracted onto facebook? There must be something there I need.. right? Get ready for this week... Saveth at pot for when I need it.. must do that. must not rely on anything external. I rely on healthy food .....when I stop honoring its power is when it becomes "wrong". It is how I look at them that determines their value? I think it is. How am I using this time well? I am thinking about why I am doing so poorly in school. I think the issue is that I have never really studied the way this Islam and Eberle experience is asking me to.
She is a really awesome person. the fact that my voice has always worked around her (basically) is quite the sign. She is looking for a mysterious answer, THINKS well of me and thus influences the way the thoughts about myself go.
Wow. So the places I put myself into have an affect on me.
the library was a good spot to go.. don't know what happened to Matt... thinking maybe I should let that relationship go? I just don't know... hope he calls?
Dad will probably call . he wants me to call him. He might have some words I need. . . . doing some studying stuff. Islam? Words.. get excited about words first..
maybe it was one week
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