I think

I think I am drawn to things for reason I have no comprehension of.
Perhaps I was drawn to Cindy with that church with the art show for this exact reason.
I can't help ... lots of things.
Not too sure about how i feel about rides right now.
Not too sure what I feel about help.
It depends how focused nations are when committed to solving the problem. Hmm. Eric has shifted out and someone else has moved in? I was just talking a few days ago about how crummy it was that a guy waited until he had another girl in mind (or in line) before he dumped his girlfriend. And here I am doing the same thing.
So Blake was teaching me how others could love me (and he knew it)
and the consequences of that action are far reaching because it affected how I perceive people's reactions..
What cool conversations did I have today?
I had a really cool one with John. It wasn't about cool things, but it felt right. So I have a vaginal diseasethat 80% of women have one strain of by age 50.
That makes me feel dead. Thinking about that feels like I ruined my life.
Black and white like John said.. try not to see it so black and white...
try to see it how it is? But what if it is thoughts and events with thoughts that create part of how the ...
event.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
The concert was totally fine. am I glad I went? yeah. Did it go just like it was supposed to? I hope so...

The things I want to "share" you can get in your own space... and without some of the stupflundous filler talk. . .
.. i dunno. The few interactions I have with you are some of the most complexing ones.
I feel like you've go it together more than I do. But we're both human, right?! So.. really.. what besides my psychology telling a story to myself could there be for me feeling that I am lacking in some way? Gee wizzers, i loose myself. Eric claims to do this (which tends to be when i get most frustrated).. and I feel really uncomfortable with this double sided way I feel about him... I think it has something to do with these differing "personalities" within us but as our relationship goes on I am recognizing tons of patterns of other relationships clipping like ours feels to be... and it becomes more about the individual psyches than the psyche as a couple.. that is interesting.. two peoples' psyches corrupting each other.. i often ask myself what is causing my thoughts to take the forms they're taking... this therapist guy this morning told me that I sometimes sounded self righteous. And I said, "How much is there I am not saying." And he replied, "like right there".. and I reflected on the few times I have seen that self righteous look in others. The performer playing the clarinet tonight was interesting. It is like he was struggling with his own perception of his "gifts" while he was up there.. it was mostly blues, swing, they did a Pasty Cline song and some famous Jazz song, "Sing, Sing, Sing"